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Advice… or lack there of.
I’m the type of person that has gone throughout his life helping those that are having trouble with things (be it emotional or physical, doesn’t matter), well I’m also the type that doesn’t take his own advice, sometimes to the detriment of an issue.
Note: this may get a too deep for some :P
I’ve been sitting here for two days saying to myself “get on with things and get them out of the way”, this is pertaining to an essay that is due next week and a large report that’s due three weeks from now. I just can’t seem to get into gear to get them done. I’m also lazing behind in study as well, I’ve got a pile of 8 books sitting next to me on the desk that need to be read through so I can learn the necessities, again I just haven’t been able to get into gear to keep reading them.
I know that deep down I want to do these things and a small part of me actually enjoys the thought of learning something new and different. However due to the many years out of study I am, I get extremely frustrated as to the amount of time that it takes for me to fully grasp ideas and remember things (I used to blaze through textbooks and learn new things extremely fast). Instead, what used to take me hours to remember now takes me days, as such I get frustrated with myself and think “why am I doing this!?”.
Here inlays the “not taking my own advice” part. I would normally say something like “well, just think of the outcome, you get to go and do something”, or something insightful, but I have hit somewhat of a proverbial brick wall and am not listening to myself…
Strange thing is I’m not overly stressed out about it all, its just frustrating. I’ll have to just force myself to crash through that brick wall and tear it down.
Kind of a personal post I know, but none the less its out there and now its just another reason to get over it.
On a side note exams are over for another 2.2 months so rather happy about that. I think I did alright in them so just have to wait and see the results.
